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Mulanay: Sa Pusod ng Paraiso (Reflection)

Mulanay is a 1996 Filipino film co-produced by the New Tropical Medicine Foundation which starred two of the country’s finest actresses – Jacklyn Jose and Gina Alajar. The movie was written by the respected Clodualdo del Mundo, Jr. and directed by multi-awarded Gil Portes. The plot of the movie revolved around Dra. Ria Espinosa and her passion for work and service as she decided to be a doctor to a barrio called Mulanay.

In relation with the topic “Community Organizing and Development,” I think Dra. Ria Espinosa became the spark that started the change in Mulanay. After finishing her degree in Medicine, she immediately established her path to being a Doctor of a Barrio and she was assigned to Mulanay, Quezon. After arriving at Mulanay, she eventually discovered herself the different problems and complications experienced by the community. Among these are health problems and poverty brought about by the bad habits of the community people including reliance to faith healing, alcohol drinking and lack of initiative to make amends in the community. Speaking to a bigger circle, Dra. Ria Espinosa was also able to reach out to the local government to pay attention to the struggles of the people and raise awareness among the concerned people.

During her first night in the community, Dra. Ria Espinosa experienced some difficulties in adjustment as she is used to life in Manila wherein resources are available. Having stayed in the community clinic during her service days, she met Norma, the community midwife who stood by her side during the time of organizing and leading Mulanay into being a better community.

In organizing Mulanay and paving a way for its development, Dra. Ria Espinosa started with the most important component of the barrio – the people. She then encouraged everyone to practice cleanliness and good habits towards the environment since the surrounding areas are usually the cause of epidemics and diseases in the community. She was also able to raise funds and reach out to the local government to address the issues faced by Mulanay.

Despite being the spark that ignited the change in the barrio, Dra. Ria Espinosa did not accomplish these changes and developments all by herself. She needed the help of the community people, the local government and her family and friends. This made me realize that change might be initiated by an individual but it is still brought about by a collective effort. If it has been without the people then achieving an organized community would be impossible. There are struggles faced by each individual belonging to the community and that is exactly the point to begin with – we deal with our own problems, fixit, before we can fix the entire community.

While some of us are entitled to be leaders, some should step back and settle with the role of followers. For without followers there wouldn’t be an effective leader. An effective leader is backed with an effective plan – as shown in the scene in which Dra. Ria Espinosa made her way back to Manila and left Mulanay temporarily to engage with her own plans for the community. Some of which are to raise funds for the deep well and contact the local government to address the issue about the bridge connecting Mulanay to the town to make way for farmers to be able to market their products.

It is not easy to organize a community especially if you are not a citizen of the certain barrio. I therefore conclude that the first step into development is knowing the problem and identifying the ways by which this can be addressed. Dra. Ria Espinosa has proven that if you want to help, it does not matter if you belong to the community. What matters more is your passion for service and work because these passion is what plays a trick and turns around things that opens the door for a brighter future not only for those who needed rescue but also to those with helping hands who weathered the barriers and painted a blue sky for other people to see the same rainbow they see.

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I wandered until I lost myself in a sea of people

Gazing through the blinding rays of the sun, it was the change of season

Like the autumn leaves falling down into the ground

They filled the places like puzzle pieces; each voice finds its sound

I look beyond what the world is trying to portray

The truth is sicker than all the lies that has been spoken

Love is left in the corner like burnt cigarettes on the ashtray

A thousand and one stories my heart has been laden

Your eyes breathe sparks through my entity and I am ablazed

My bones are filled with chills and this heart see clear no more

Bound by a strength but somehow freed by a weakness

This magic is pure and magician is playing encore

You held my hands, kept me close and hadn’t let me go

Tomorrow is uncertain but today is still a holy grail undiscovered

The past might have been ruined but it speaks the way it shows

Pain is served on a platter and we dined with our hearts scattered

The atmosphere is empty and so as the connection that once stood by

We face again tomorrow but that would be a chapter yet to be written

The pages are blank but there are plans left to unfold for you and I

This heavy heart is unfathomed; still a window of chances are yet to be taken

words left unsaid.

People used to say, “Some things are better left unsaid.” Unsaid. Unspoken. the words that did not come to life. How come they were left on the shelf?

There are some certainties about our feelings that don’t exist in the horizon. Somehow, from their respective graves, they come to haunt us. All the damn time. Burying these notions in the first place is a serious crime to commit yet no punishment shall be bestowed.

It is ridiculous that we tend to escape our own reality and create an alternative world wherein everything is crafted and fabricated the way we want things to be. I guess everyone has got that world behind their backs. Behind the spotlight, everyone is a victim of truth.

Personally, I have some words in the back of my mind that I long to utter. Yet some circumstances would not allow me to. Love is bothering me. Right now. At the moment. On point.

The words I have left on my shelf are starting to knock me off – all of them one by one. So why the hell did I intended to hold them? It’s not a question of courage or sincerity but for some reasons, some lines meet at a point and that point is the point of no return.

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Hello BSE11 and Mrs. Planas 🙂

After reading the comments written on my paper, I feel relieved not because they were mostly positive but because they reminded me that there are a lot of things I should appreciate about myself. I’m grateful to be surrounded with people who appreciate the good in everyone. At the same time, I feel blessed with everything that God has given me.

I realized that we should always find the good in every person we meet. For we are created in God’s image and likeness, each one of us possesses something significant and God-given. I also realized that it is not enough to live by our positive traits; the main thing is to utilize them in order to help other people bring out the best in them.

Thank you to everyone who wrote on my paper! I appreciate you all for seeing God’s image and likeness in me. Thank you also to Mrs. Planas for allowing us to see ourselves from another person’s perspective through this activity. God bless everyone! ((: — xoxobreezy

chapters.

I wrote a story about how I fell in a ditch. Each day, I’ve written chapters and as each chapter end, I do fear the feeling that the story will soon come to an end. How ironic it is that I fear rising up after falling. As the words unfold, I start to reconnect the stars in my galaxy and trace them into constellations of my own. At night, I lay back and find myself wandering and wondering about how foolish I was to act upon myself. I admit I do regret the chances I did not play right. Dreams come to life as if they were dust turning into sparks in the gloomy aura of the fading sunlight. I catch myself longing for a love I never had in the first place. My heart is empty but not blind for it sees and seeks what needs to be seen and sought. The growing worry like the raging waves of the sea has calmed down. Everything went back to normal and everything built has fallen.

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Short exchanges of text messages on a Sunday morning

The music filled the air and the sparks have gone to play

I feel nothing, not even the same old empty feeling

All I know is I’m ready to take a new path right on this day

The wind says something has faded that only time could describe

Yet I hear a soft whisper from my soul that yearns for your love

I could only live upon the words and promises that once came to life

For all we know, fate has only played upon us; the game is too odd

If only I could turn back the hands of the clock

Or even put back the pages that comprised the calendar

Never in my power would I allow us to end up in this position

Nor would I let go of your hand for your fingers are all tied to mine

Memories sweet as sugar but all I’m left to do is to reminisce

I admit I messed up chances; I fucked up my choices

Lying on this bed, playing sad songs cause it’s you that I miss

Given one chance, I would love you and not compare you any less